No more crying.
Today was alright,
just that,
oh wells, nevermind.
Churched, the sermon was rather good,
then SNJB,
yu hui lead P&W,
DT after that.
Anw, to all of you,
I'm damn disappointed,
you can't even share my joy,
yet expect me to share my pain with you,
I told you what happened this week,
all I got was a whatever,
forget it man,
I always do the things you all like with you all,
for example shopping,
personally, I never liked shopping,
but I still went with you all.
I like outdoor activites,
like sailing, kayaking,
things like that,
did you all do any of these with me?
whenever I said I feel like sailing,
this -.- comes out.
Thanks a lot eh.
I'm not saying that you all should,
like whatever I like,
but then,
spare thought for me?
You can say,
oh, you don't have to go shopping with us.
Fine, if that's the case,
I won't, then we can slowly drift apart,
afterall, I don't know,
what am I to you all.
Talking to Alvina really makes me laugh,
hahahahas,
anw, I bought V'day gifts already,
it's juist chocolates,
I even buys for the boys in church lorh,
tsk tsk tsk.
Dear Jinle,
I've posted in my private blog,
go read,
I feel damn sad now,
I'm like trying to start a converstation,
with anybody available online,
but they are all either busy, away, or never reply me ):
I have a lit essay to hand up tomorrow,
I DON'T LIKE LIT.
I DON'T LIKE SS.
Everybody is showing their true colours now,
including you,
E told me you are actually not very nice,
I was sketical about it,
cause you are somebody I really respect,
so I tried talking to you,
and it's becoming more and more obvious.
Everybody around me,
seems to be hypocrites,
even people around J,
I'm starting to get paranoid.
Dear dad,the feeling I have now,is like I'm willing to pay somebody to shoot me.I have four tests JUST after CNY,seriously, I'm starting to really hate school,you know I seldom use the word hate,I almost never,but, aiayh dad,I'm just so tired,I feel like robbing a bank and travel around the world,and these few weeks,I keep thinking about going heaven,I refuse to confide in anyone but you,you know why.You know me inside out,ouside in,you know I do care,but the other's don't,however, that does not matter to me.
